If I had known how much worse it would get, I would have submitted that resignation letter the day I wrote it.

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Two weeks before my wedding, I drafted my first ever letter of resignation.


Planning a range of lazy day activities ahead of time could make those days more enjoyable and less guilt-ridden.

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Unsolicited sexual advances, even when presented jokingly, are damaging to the recipient.

a banana
a banana
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I play a mobile game with an in-game chat function.


PTSD flashbacks take over when you least expect, and you can’t always choose to just not relive the event.

a bandaid over a crack in asphalt
a bandaid over a crack in asphalt
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I had an eye exam today.


I’m struggling to write, despite a myriad of topics to choose from.

Matchsticks in a line, burning
Matchsticks in a line, burning
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I’ve lived a lot of life that needs to be unpacked.


I’m not the only adult who questions the decisions they’ve made.

A forest path separates into two paths heading different directions. One path is heavily travelled; the other is not.
A forest path separates into two paths heading different directions. One path is heavily travelled; the other is not.
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Sometimes, adults have tough decisions to make.

  • full amputation — permanent disfiguration, requiring crutches or wheelchairs for the rest of his son’s life,
  • doing only chemo and hoping the tumor…


After 26 years, I’m ready to start telling my story of trauma and survival.

Words near a scar: I hope, presence, repair, redemption, loss, fear, pain, healing, fight, function, inclusion, confusion.
Words near a scar: I hope, presence, repair, redemption, loss, fear, pain, healing, fight, function, inclusion, confusion.
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I don’t know exactly when I left my birth family.


Here’s one Aspie’s inner monologue.

A plastic model of the human brain
A plastic model of the human brain
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On Wrapping Paper


As children, we believed they should. As adults, we never really stopped believing that.

Asian woman and child walking through water.
Asian woman and child walking through water.
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I’ve been going through a tough time lately.

  • struggled to breastfeed my infant — resulting in lots of tears, breast pain, and emotional battles over not providing my son’s most basic need in a way which was never difficult with his brothers
  • lost my full-time position, found and lost another full-time position, and had two contracts not renew — resulting in a seemingly never-ending job search, immense financial strain, intense emotional battles, and physical complications from…


Different doesn’t mean wrong, bad, or evil.

We look at the same moon, but live in diffrent[sic] worlds… (Photo by Arie Wubben on Unsplash)

Like many people, I need to describe the world around me.

  • Milk = drink/ingredient, liquid/powdered, sweet, blueish white, common, mammalian product
  • Lamp = bright/dark, barrier between human and lightbulb, consumes fuel

EdesRozsa

I am everything that ever happened to me, in one pleasantly bizarre package: married with 3 boys, Aspie, & nerd. Ask me anything: it's always free to ask.

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